Daily Challenges

There are so many things in life that are hard to do. Things that must be done.

Things like exercising (hello, yoga!).
Things like writing.
Things like saying something to someone who will have a hard time hearing it (but needs to).

We are faced with challenges on a daily basis. There are goals in my life and most of them just require showing up. Doing the hard work. I think these obstacles serve a purpose. They pop up in your face, give you a dirty look and ask, "so how bad do you want this?"

Years ago the hardest thing on my list above was speaking my truth. I always felt bad, apologetic. Like I would hurt someone's feelings. I kept myself locked up and dealt with whatever pain to avoid inflicting it elsewhere. Ironically, the easiest thing for me at the time was exercise. I was busy but I didn't have the time limitations like I do now. I was aggressive in my sports. Healthy. And writing? Well. That has always been a constant. It was more for enjoyment and expression (even though I wouldn't completely allow myself to come out on the page- too many snoopers).

Now, I'd say it's exactly opposite. I have learned that as long as I'm not mean there is no harm in being honest. I have also learned to not take on other's emotions. Why should I try do the work for them? I've got my own thing going on. Exercise is the challenge. Finding time. Finding energy. Finding myself again...even though I've changed so much. Ever feel like you're wearing one of those sumo suits? Thick padding on the outside, real body in? The kind where it's a challenge to walk? Ok. I'm not THAT big but I feel that way sometimes. It's a struggle. It's a work in progress. It sucks.  On a positive note, I am writing - right now. It's still for enjoyment (even though I'd like to call myself a "writer" one day) and I hope to one day make a living at it.  Like many other things it's so hard finding the time to do something you love. Especially, something you want to help pay some of the bills.

So the good news is, I showed up for writing today.